Sunday, August 30, 2009

Turning corners

This is what's happening here at my house tonight.

A young man is setting out on a new adventure. A new season of life, as he put it. (hmm, wonder where he's heard that before!)

Tomorrow Zach leaves for bible college.

But tonight there has been packing, laughter, talking, praying and even some tears.

Another corner to turn.

And so he's off...and he's holding on to his Jesus.

Me too. : )

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

These are the moments...

That make my life worth living...

A day at the beach with my family...playing in the waves and getting salty kisses from my grandbabies. The sun and sound of the waves lulling me to a place where all my cares seem so far away.

It was a perfectly lovely day...a gift from the Lord.

Hope y'all are having a wonderful week! : )

Monday, August 17, 2009

Happiness is...

Dipping your feet in cool water on a hot summer day...after working 12 hours.
To the dear friends who let me enjoy doing that very thing and then fed me a yummy dinner...I love you!
I am so thankful for all my friends... real life and bloggy. You guys are the best! Thank you for your love and continued prayers.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

New Beginnings...

Visiting Zach at camp last month

It's the middle of August (obviously!) and the new school year is upon us. Everyone is getting ready--whether there is new curriculum to organize or new school supplies to buy--it's in the air. Even my little Troy told me on the phone the other day, when asked what he was doing, "I'm doing my school." (Side note: Ashleigh is not making her 3 year old do school. He gets out his little workbooks and asks to do school. : ) )

I always loved the new school year--the planning, the new books--the opportunity for a fresh start. A clean slate. A new beginning.

And while I have officially taken off my 'homeschool mom' hat and hung it up for good, I can't help but get caught up in the anticipation of what this time of year means. New beginnings.

It's been 8 months now since my husband left. Eight months filled with tears and the most unbelievable sadness and heartbreak I've ever known. Tears over being rejected by the one you love and the raw, deep pain that ensues. The reality that I (and my children) will be dealing with this for the rest of our lives.

But there have been triumphs as well. The fact that I've made it this far and have not lost my mind. I've am surviving. That once again, God has shown Himself to be everything I need. I have grown closer to my children, my family and friends. I have reconnected with people from my past, who are dear to me. I am making new friends at work. I have made it through birthdays and holidays and my son's graduation. I have made it through family functions where once my husband stood with me, but now I stand alone. It's been so hard. So very, very hard. But I've made it. And I am seeing for the first time in a long time, hope realized.

I had a major turning point last month. My nearly 24 year marriage is over and that is my reality. What was before December 9th, 2008 is my old life and what is now is my new new reality. And I am ready to start looking forward instead of looking back. I can't hold on to what will never be. It takes two to hold on to a marriage and one of us let go a long time ago.

So it's time. For a fresh start. And I am thanking the Lord for new beginnings.