Thursday, July 29, 2010


Steadfast in affection and allegiance--faithful friend, best friend.

My Brodie-dog.

He's been with me with me through thick and thin these past two years. He's been there since the beginning of the end of our world as we knew it.

At the first sound of tears, he'd forsake whatever he was doing and come to me. On many nights he'd take up the empty spot on the other side of the bed--even though he prefers his own doggie bed. He'd keep me company as I spent many afternoons hiking in the desert hills. He moved with me from those desert hills, across the country to Omaha.

And he's here with me now--as we make a new life.

I couldn't ask for a better friend. : )

Monday, July 26, 2010

KC Trip...

This past weekend Todd, his older son Tyler, his younger son Nick...and me...headed to Kansas City for Tyler's soccer tournament. What fun! I played soccer in high school and I LOVE to watch a good soccer game.

So under blue skies and lots of heat and even more humidity...

We watched Tyler play soccer...

Very intently...

And little brother watched (and maybe was a tad bit bored)....

And in the evening, after one game got rained out...

We headed downtown and saw a gondola...

And a fountain....

And I made Tyler and Nick stand in front of the fountain and act like they loved each other...which of course, they do! : )

Then...while we waited an hour for our table at PF Chang's, we walked around and saw beautiful buildings...

Our Kansas City weekend was a lot of fun! I've been a lot of places, but the midwest is a new experience for me. I was very surprised at how pretty downtown KC was...lots of fun shops and interesting buildings. I wish we'd had more time because I would have loved to take more pictures. Another day...

Now I am home and ready for the work week. Happy Monday!! : )

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

My new friend

Meet my Nikon D5000!! Can I tell you am SO excited?!!

Some of you might remember I used to have a Nikon D40, but sold it to help pay expenses. I was totally ok with selling the camera as it was given as a gift and it brought back painful memories.

Oh, but I have missed having a nice camera! It's been almost frustrating to not be able to get the shots I wanted. So this past Sunday after church, Todd and I headed to the store to pick out my new Nikon. It was so much fun and I LOVE it!

The only problem? I haven't had time to use it!

Soon...very soon.

Be prepared. : )

Friday, July 16, 2010

The promise...

Yesterday we had a crazy storm here in Omaha. It had been brewing all afternoon and by the time I got off work the sky was dark and the wind had picked up considerably. When it finally hit, the storm only lasted about 3o minutes, but it sure caused a lot of damage. Lightning struck a power pole, knocking out power for hours (with the heat index over 100!), downed trees and branches were everywhere. It was a mess, to be sure.

But then...after the storm ended and the damage assessed...the sky began to clear and there appeared a rainbow. A double rainbow.

Thank you, Lord.

Yesterday had been very emotional for me. During the storm I was actually having a conversation with Zach as we talked about the awful days, weeks, months...after his dad left our home. Those were the hardest days we've ever endured. We spent many nights crying (Ashleigh too), just holding each other as we tried to make sense of what was happening.

Rejection in any form is always hard, but when it comes from a spouse or parent--especially one who had always said they loved you, wanted to protect and care for you--it is devastating. If you've ever been through this--abandonment, rejection--then you know exactly what I am talking about.

But then...after the storm yesterday, there was the rainbow (a double one at that!). The promise.

Thank you, Lord.

The same God who promised Noah he would never flood the earth again and gave a visible sign of that promise--was reminding me that He is a God of hope, restoration and new beginnings.

That double rainbow? It was a gift to me from my Lord.

Thank you, Lord.

Blessings and hugs to you... ; )

Monday, July 12, 2010

Morning chat...

Isn't this cup pretty?

I found it one day while I was out 'thrifting'. My grandmother had dishes with the same pattern. When I saw this cup, it immediately brought back memories of a little girl sitting at my Grandma's kitchen table, eating toast with jam while she skimmed the newspaper and drank her morning coffee from a cup just like this one.

It also made me long for those years when life seemed so much simpler. I am sure it wasn't simple for the adults in my life (in fact, I know it wasn't), but I didn't know about those things when I was five.

Life is hard sometimes, isn't it? It's not always pretty. Things are often anything but simple. Life is complicated. There is pain. There is heartbreak and heartache. And it hurts...physically, emotionally, spiritually.

This is where I've been these past twenty few months. Trying to sort through this complicated life of mine. Trying to make some sense of what took place and at the same time, trying to move forward.

But moving forward is proving to be a bit more difficult than I thought because the past is always before me.

Writing about it isn't always easy, because while I have an incredible amount of love and support surrounding me, I also have those in my life (who read this public blog) that think the way I am dealing/healing/praying/worshiping, ect... isn't 'right' or 'fast enough' or...whatever else we can heap on the already burdened shoulders of our sisters or brothers in Christ. ::sigh::

And sadly, it's those voices that sometimes drown out the ones that remind me of what is real and true: Jesus, the lover of my soul... holds my life, my heart, my pain, my past, my His ever-capable hands and I am trusting in Him. He knows the very intimate details of my situation and puts no man-made formula or timetable on my healing (or my children's).

So thank you to those of you who love and support my family and I--with your kind, gentle, heartfelt words and actions. Thank you for allowing the Lord to work and trusting Him to do it--according to His plan and His purpose. Thank you for allowing us to make mistakes--and giving us room to learn and grow from them.

Thank you for simply loving.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13

Much love from me to you... : )

(P.S. If you have a moment, please take time to read Ashleigh's post today. The Lord continues to use my amazing children to help in my own healing. I am blessed.)